Fotografo de Bodas, Santiago

February 27, 2009

S. said to me the other day, “Wow. You’ve changed a lot.”

At first I though he meant that I had turned into a cranky old biddy or something and we were about to have that retardedly stereotypical fight where the husband tells the wife she’s not the same anymore and the wife tells the husband that he’s not romantic anymore, and it all ends in smoke and tears.

But he meant that I looked different than I did when we first started dating. His exact quote to explain himself was, “I mean, look at my face. I’ve had the same face since I was 12. You haven’t.” Which is true. In part, I’m sure, because of my weight loss, I definitely look a lot different than I did back in the day.

The whole thing had me searching through old photos taking a trip down memory lane. My options are limited though since most of my old pics are on film and I don’t have them on my computer. Here’s what I found.

Life started out pretty well. I was a cute baby with a really hot mom:

And my dad may have been rocking the porn ‘stache, but he was still a pretty handsome guy.

We liked to fish…

We lived on a lake. Everything was good…

…until my mom gave me a mullet and bangs.

And then a curly bowl cut.

A few years later I started getting a little chubbier than most of the other kids my age.

Fortunately, I was still too young to care.

I was good at sports even though I was “big boned,” or “super muscular” or whatever form of the word BIG people chose to use for me.

When I went to Chile, people always commented on my weight, because well, people here are really rude about that sort of thing. I still wasn’t phased. I was blond and that was enough for all the guys in my class here to want to kiss me.

By the time I was a sophomore in high school I was much fatter than my mom and my weight sort of bothered me.

But, I really never felt bad about myself.

I’ve always had a huge ego. Nothing can bring me down, not even stomach rolls and thunder thighs.

UGH. Band camp = LOVE. You can call me a nerd all you want but I have some of the most fun memories.

I gained even more weight in college. And as you can see, I had super curly hair up until recently. It always looked like this unless I straightened it.

And then I started running like a maniac on the track every night. Losing weight completely changed my identity and I started feeling like a bad ass. I dyed my hair red, got my nose and belly button pierced, and got a tattoo.

But even though I was hot I still never had sex with anyone.

Oddly enough, around the time I started having sex with S. my hair started getting straighter. I’m not saying this to give you TMI. I just think there’s some kind of hormonal connection there.

I maintained my 50 pound weight loss until I got married and then I lost 10 more pounds just for the heck of it. This is me on the week of my wedding when I weighed about 125 lbs, my lowest adult weight ever.

Since all my super hot besties were coming to the wedding I had to look good!

Now here’s me. I weigh 132, but ever since I got married my face just keeps getting more and more angular, no matter what I weigh, and my hair keeps getting straighter. When I look in the mirror sometimes I can’t even recognize the person who stares back.

S. is right. I have changed a lot.

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Estos ultimos dias he estado leyendo partes de tu blog y tengo muchos comentarios, pero como estoy con sueÃ±o, intentare ser breve

Me encanta como escribes, como dices las cosas. Me has hecho reir, lagrimear, rabiar y pensar.

Me encantan tus fotos, son muy limpias, sinceras y
llenas de arte.

Me alegro muchisimo que hayas encontrado al amor de tu vida y que el te corresponda.

Me apena que parte de tu vida en Chile la hayas pasado sin amigos y con temor. Vivir en una cultura diferente de por si es dificil, mas aun cuando no tienes amigos para compartir tus dias.

Te respeto muchisimo por lo mucho que has logrado en tan poco tiempo y siendo tan joven.
Es muy refrescante ver a una persona joven con tanta determinacion y entrega.

En resumidas cuentas, debes y tienes que estar muy orgullosa de ti misma.

A mi tambien me ha tocado vivir en un pais que no es el mio y sin amigos ni familia cercana, asi que puedo entender perfectamente por lo que has vivido y sigues viviendo.

En cierto modo me siento identificada contigo aunque mi situacion es la opuesta: soy de Bolivia, estoy casada con un gringo y vivo en USA!

Y una cosa importantisima que compartimos: el futbol! aaaaamo el futbol, en realidad me encantan los deportes, pero en particular el futbol…aunque en mi pais somos chacras (pesimos) y solo una vez en nuestra historia hemos clasificado para el Mundial

Menos mal que he dicho que iba a ser breve ja,ja
Besos para ti y muchisimas felicidades!

Comment by Eliana Turner — February 27, 2009 @ 10:00 pm

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My boobs.. are.. amazing! LOL Oh yeah, this is about you. You are and have always been HOT! “We don’t have ugly friends.”

Comment by EvilJoy — February 27, 2009 @ 10:07 pm

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Wow, I can’t believe the change in your hair!! Also congrats on the fitness, you’ve worked really hard and it shows!

Comment by tashia — February 27, 2009 @ 10:26 pm

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Eliana, muchas gracias, agredezco que hayas tomado el tiempo para dejar un comentario tan largo. A lo mejor tienes tanto que decir que debes empezar tu propio blog. Para mi, por lo menos, seria interesante leer de tus experiencias…como tenemos las vidas opuestas, jajaja

Y siiiiiii, te entiendo completamente por lo del futbol. Da pena ser de un pais que no sea ni Argentina, ni Italia, ni Brazil. El resto de los equipos estan cagados, como dicen aca!

Bueno saludos, y nuevamente gracias por tus palabras tan simpaticas. Ojala que sigas pasando por este blog mio de vez en cuando…

Joy, yep, your boobs = lumps of amazing. I get so nostalgic looking at these pics. We had so much fun together!!!!!

Tashia, I KNOW, the hair thing is weird, right? I don’t know anyone else who has had the same thing happened in real life, but I’ve looked up on the internet and apparently it’s fairly normal. And thanks!

Comment by Mamacita Chilena — February 27, 2009 @ 10:31 pm

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I loved the trip down memory lane! Those are some great pictures. I completely forgot about those Nike cheerleading shoes we had with the colored maroon inserts. Those rocked. You are beautiful and I can’t believe you have lost all of your curls! I just seem to keep losing more and more hair altogether (must be the hormones?)

Comment by Lindsey — February 27, 2009 @ 10:37 pm

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you’re fabulous and you look AMAZING now and then (and you’re skinny in your pictures and wayyyyyyy skinnier in “real life”) thanks for sharing the pics and the info…S. does a (YOUR) body good, jaja

Comment by Isabel — February 27, 2009 @ 11:17 pm

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I’ve heard of hair getting curly after puberty, so maybe hair getting straighter has something to do with hormones as well. Anyway, you look fab. And your baby/little kid pictures are way cute.

Comment by Abby — February 27, 2009 @ 11:21 pm

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What a beautiful life… ; )
Miss you kitty!

Comment by Molly — February 27, 2009 @ 11:22 pm

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I have to say… in WHAT warped world would ANYONE consider you big in that cheerleader shot??!!! YOU LOOK ABSOLUTELY FABULOUS AND SO FIT!

It’s true you’ve changed a lot throughout the years and kudos on all the hard work (running on the track EVERY night???!!) but I couldn’t help noticing that one thing hasn’t changed no matter your age nor weight: you have the same beautiful smile you had when you were a little kid!…

Fned.
P.S. I wish the opposite would have happen to me: me getting curly hair after meeting Hubby.

Comment by Fned — February 28, 2009 @ 3:15 am

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You are stunning no matter what! But you are a role model for those of us unsatisfied with our weight

I miss youuuuuuuuuu

ps. some of those pictures made me literally laugh out loud.

Comment by Hulie — February 28, 2009 @ 7:43 am

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hahah cute post.

you know though, i dont really think you look that big in the pictures at all, except the one pic of you and one girl in the dress. without your commentary i probably would’ve just thought you suddenly gained a bit of weight there.
though your right, your face looks a different shape! thats weird, the hair too. i woudve killed for hair like yours in that photo with the hat where you’re on a dorm floor or something!!! i died my hair close to that color too haha. looked better on you.

The chilean comments made me giggle though, about how much people mention weight. last weekend we went to the suegros and my suegra went on and on about how much weight I had gained. then we went into town to see other relatives and friends that were amazed at how skinny i looked.

i love picture posts

Comment by lydia — February 28, 2009 @ 9:54 am

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The hair is probably a combo of the fab (I assume) S sex and the Stgo water. Jajaja. Great pics. Love the captions. You were a cute kid!

Comment by Clare — February 28, 2009 @ 10:56 am

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awesome post! love that comment about the porn ‘stache… LOL!

I honestly don’t even think you were very big. Pleasantly plump but not “fat” at all. But either way, you look great!

i wish i had the angular face thing going on. when i gain weight, it shows in my face a LOT. i guess it keeps me motivated not to get fat though. i sit on my ass and eat all day but thanks to breastfeeding it is not showing at all… yet

Comment by kumichan83 — February 28, 2009 @ 11:21 am

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What a beautiful comment from Eliana.

Your post is so funny and refreshingly candid. I think you’ve always been beautiful–much more beautiful than Brooke Hogan.

Besos from the Midwest! (for now…)

Comment by Still Life in South America — February 28, 2009 @ 7:54 pm

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Awww.. thanks for the walk down memory lane.

My hair was very curly (and blond) when I was young too, but now it’s just kind of wavy (annoyingly, I usually think) and my bangs are limp unless I do something too them. They’re super-fine, but the rest of my hair isn’t.

Maybe it’s S has a lot more influence on you than you think, or maybe it’s that water in Chile.

Comment by Ordinary Girl — March 1, 2009 @ 8:00 am

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Lindsey, haha, the maroon inserts…and the maroonies, or the whities, lol, FUN times!

Isabel, thanks! I am going to start using that saying, “S. does a body good.” Haha, you’re funny!

Abby, yeah I feel like it has to be hormones, there really isn’t any other explanation. But I miss my curls!

Molly, I miss you too Gato!

Fned, well, by normal people standards I wasn’t big…but I was in 7th grade, when all the other girls were still tiny and gangly and still under 100 pounds…I just never hit that phase, lol.

Hulie, I know some of those pictures I look back and I’m like, “What was I thinking?!?” But they’re still good for a laugh!

Lydia, haha, don’t you love suegra commentaries on your weight? My suegra has like a sixth sense and tells me how me how much weight I’ve lost or gained every time I see her. She’s like, “Oh you look like you’re two kilos thinner!” (Or fatter, whatever the case). But it’s crazy how it’s a comment every single time we get together.

Clare, yeah could be the water too, I never considered that…

Kathleen, haha, that is good motivation! If I ever gain back all my weight hopefully I can just take pictures from the neck up and hide it

Amanda, you are so sweet! I’m looking forward to you coming back so we can get together again!

O.G. really strange how your bangs are fine and the rest of your hair isn’t. Have you ever tried to grow them out and see if they’ll fit in better with the rest of your hair?

Comment by Mamacita Chilena — March 1, 2009 @ 11:49 am

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Ooh, I love picture posts!

Comment by PastaQueen — March 1, 2009 @ 1:06 pm

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Did anyone notice your tongue in these pictures? The first thing you did when you were born was stick out your tongue and test the air with it. See how you’re sticking it out in the pic when you were about a month old? Then, you began to use your tongue for anything that took effort. See the cheerleader picture? Your tongue helps make your work easier I think. O.K., I can’t explain the pic where you are just purposely sticking it out!!

Comment by Ritamae — March 1, 2009 @ 10:23 pm

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You know what’s crazy is that I haven’t really even seen you since you lost weight! You look so pretty in ALL your pictures! And guess what? I am now addicted to blogs, and yours is great!

Comment by Morgan A. — March 2, 2009 @ 7:34 am

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you are beautiful kyle
sorry i missed your bday
it looks like you guys had fun.

Comment by cavils in chile — March 2, 2009 @ 6:45 pm

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Such a great post! I loved looking through all the pictures. Isn’t it awesome as we get older how we can look back and identify when we thought we were a badass? Ha, ha! I went thru those phases too. I used to fear change and now I love it. Life is good. Thanks for sharing all this and be super proud of all your hard work!

Comment by Lori - Blondie in Brazil — March 3, 2009 @ 10:54 am

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Wow, you have been stunning for YEARS.

Comment by mona — March 3, 2009 @ 12:30 pm

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